[11 Oct 2005|01:11pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | Less than jake- the science of selling yourself short ] I've come to my senses, that I've become senseless, I could give you lessons on how to ruin your friendships, Every last conviction, I smoked them all away, I drank my frustrations down the drain, out of the way, So I sit and wait and wonder, does anyone else feel like me? Someone so tired of their routines and disappearing self-esteems, I'll sing along, Yeah with every emergency, Just sing along, I'm the king of catastrophies, I'm so far gone, That deep down inside I think it's fine by me, I'm my own worst enemy I could be an expert on co-dependency, I could write the best book on underage tragedy, I've been spending my time at the local liquor store, I've been sleeping nightly on my best friends kitchen floor, So I sit and wait and wonder, does anyone else feel like me? I'm so over-dosed on apathy and burnt out on sympathy. Let the meaning slip away Lost my faith in another day, Self deprication seems okay, I never thought I'd make it anyway That I'm my own worst enemy Cos I'm my own worst enemy And I'm my own worst enemy Cos I'm my own worst enemy 1 comment|post comment

I should have my own reality show. So that everyone could watch my life fall apart at the seams [10 Oct 2005|11:39pm] [ mood | numb ] [ music | wierd science- oingo boingo ] I dont know what to do anymore. I feel alone. I know people are around but no one is left to be there for me. I've ruined everything. I feel like that bonaduce guy on vh1. so for now im watching ghostbusters because it is the only thing that will cheer me up. Man i am fucked up. post comment

okay back to reality [06 Oct 2005|05:54pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Gym Class Heroes- makeout club ] Alright then now that I've had a chance to calm down and really think about things, I now retract almost all of my previous statement. I'm not really mad anymore, i just feel very sorry for Ben because i beleive i have figured out why he is doing what he is doing. And if he needs to sabatoge a band and make himself look like a victim just for some attention, i really pitty him because it is truly sad. post comment

Some people are so pathetic it's funny [06 Oct 2005|01:35pm] [ mood | enraged ] [ music | Unearth ] Ben and Sean have quit Mean Girls. There are good and bad things about Ben's absence, first we will discuss the bad part. He is a skilled musician and a very good performer. If this were all we were losing it would have been a tragedy. But there are also benefits from his leaving. We wont have to put up with his controlling and manipulative personality anymore. Throughout most of Mean girls existance he has been holding mean girls back. He turns down offers to play shows, he decided to stop selling shirts and kept us from making and selling any other kinds of Merch.He has been keeping us from recording a quality cd. Without him this will be a lot easier to do. Without Ben to turn down shows and keep everyones hands tied, everyone in Mean Girls will finally be able to put forth an effort and keep the band growing and eventually take the show on the road. So really the only problem with Ben leaving is that he is trying to swindle away the band money. I am fine with him taking his fair share, which would be about one sixth of the fund. But he feels like he should have most of the money since he feels like no one else has put forth an effort.This of course is what you would expect from a sociopath like Ben. He cares about no one but himself and will use anyone and do whatever he can in order to further himself. He has done this Before, but he wont be able to rob Mean Girls like he did with Epiphany. So Ben i say to you So long and good riddance! All that is left now is to call up a new guitarist(i think there are a few on speed dial) and move on with our hands finally untied. Sean, your loss was a shock to all of us but we understand completely and wish you luck with whatever you end up doing. To lose a drummer of your caliber is a real tragedy and im sorry you are leaving. post comment

Wet like a cherry....... [27 Sep 2005|02:57pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | He is legend....the walls have teeth ] Well folks im starting over with a totally new LJ, i promise to keep this one going even though i know no one is reading this.....echo echo echo echo post comment

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